Day Two
Trust
Trust
When I started reading today I actually laughed out loud. HA! Trust! I read through and did the morning exercise and then it all changed. Now I am writing this pretty much as it happens so here it is.
There is a difference between trusting someone and trusting in someone (Iyanla's words not mine). To trust someone is to trust the divine spirit that resides in them, to know that no matter what that person may say or do it doesn't change their core being. Nor can anything that happens to you change yours. You don't rely on people, you've learned to rely on the divine presence within them. How awesome is that?! To trust in someone is to put trust in the words or actions of someone else, knowing that humans are subject to react based on their own internal fear, guilt or shame.
It was after I finished reading that my heart told me this lesson wasn't over, it was time to open my Bible. Again, HA! I don't know anything about the Bible, I wouldn't even know where to look. My heart's response was that I wasn't asked to know what I was looking for, as that would defeat the purpose of a lesson, I was only asked to get my Bible. So I did.
My Teacher told me to read this:
"I tell you the truth, , anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name and I will do it."
- John 14:12-14
It is where I am in my journey that makes that scripture especially important to me and my Teacher knew that. I am in place where I don't know how to trust which is really the base of everything. The reason I fear, because I don't trust. The reason I'm angry, because I don't trust. I wanted to trust, I even pretended that I did but the truth is that I truly don't know how to trust. It was that truth that opened me to what my Teacher has been trying to say. Up until now I have been sitting at the back of the classroom only half paying attention, usually doing whatever I felt like doing until I heard something interesting and then I would listen enough to nod my head and agree and then go back to doing whatever it was that I found to be more important at the time. Today that changed. Today I took my assignment to my Teacher and He told me that I don't have feel the way I feel, that He can teach me to trust I just have to ask.
Needless to say, this has been pretty amazing. For the rest of the day I will do my best to learn lessons of trust and truth.
Oh and my Teacher says hi!
xo
There is a difference between trusting someone and trusting in someone (Iyanla's words not mine). To trust someone is to trust the divine spirit that resides in them, to know that no matter what that person may say or do it doesn't change their core being. Nor can anything that happens to you change yours. You don't rely on people, you've learned to rely on the divine presence within them. How awesome is that?! To trust in someone is to put trust in the words or actions of someone else, knowing that humans are subject to react based on their own internal fear, guilt or shame.
It was after I finished reading that my heart told me this lesson wasn't over, it was time to open my Bible. Again, HA! I don't know anything about the Bible, I wouldn't even know where to look. My heart's response was that I wasn't asked to know what I was looking for, as that would defeat the purpose of a lesson, I was only asked to get my Bible. So I did.
My Teacher told me to read this:
"I tell you the truth, , anyone who has faith in me will do what I have been doing. He will do even greater things than these because I am going to the Father. And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Son may bring glory to the Father. You may ask me for anything in my name and I will do it."
- John 14:12-14
It is where I am in my journey that makes that scripture especially important to me and my Teacher knew that. I am in place where I don't know how to trust which is really the base of everything. The reason I fear, because I don't trust. The reason I'm angry, because I don't trust. I wanted to trust, I even pretended that I did but the truth is that I truly don't know how to trust. It was that truth that opened me to what my Teacher has been trying to say. Up until now I have been sitting at the back of the classroom only half paying attention, usually doing whatever I felt like doing until I heard something interesting and then I would listen enough to nod my head and agree and then go back to doing whatever it was that I found to be more important at the time. Today that changed. Today I took my assignment to my Teacher and He told me that I don't have feel the way I feel, that He can teach me to trust I just have to ask.
Needless to say, this has been pretty amazing. For the rest of the day I will do my best to learn lessons of trust and truth.
Oh and my Teacher says hi!
xo
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